i build my life around you

i think my current relationships with some of my supposed closest friends will continue to wither and disintegrate even more next year. i hate how you drift without realizing it sometimes, just because you don't sit in the same room with them for an hour or two throughout the school day. i get feelings of disappointment when things like this finally hit me. or maybe i've actually been thinking about them, but never really thought much of it. i guess what i'm trying to say here is that WE NEED TO FUCKING KICK IT somewhere. not a damn movie night or day when everyone is just fucking around and doing the gayest shit, but i mean just hanging out with some genuine laughs and deep talk. it's times like these i wish i had more girl friends, but i know i'm just not that type of person who connects hella well with girls. what are you gonna do.....