in everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out

so, this summer is quickly coming to an end. only things i have left to do are link crew, orientation, camping, and projects. i don't regret not starting them earlier, i work well under hella pressure anyway. well, i'm banking on that, if it turns out to be shit, then boo hoo.

i've been on the low a lot lately. i don't talk, txt, call, hang out with anyone anymore. it's a tad lonely, but feels good most of the time. well, maybe like 3/4. in the mean time, i've been reevaluating my life and thinking all that sappy shit. i've decided that i need to do things for myself and stop depending on others, because most of the time they just let you down anyway, so you might as well save yourself the heartbreak, eh? it's really hard, though. if you know me at all, you know i get attached to things very easily. people, animals, objects, music, whatever. [i just need practice at being on my own. i think that's why i've been very alone. i'm waiting for college/CSA to make lifelong friends. for now i live my life with and for Him.] < the last 2 sentences do not fit into that paragraph, but yeah]

i've been disappointed way more than necessary this summer. it is a damn shame because it's been 23 months now. if you read this, i'm going to stop living my life around you. i have to be more independent. just do me a favour and stop making all these empty promises.