words all burn the same

my heart is a broken car window. it has become unwillingly smashed into give or take a million little pieces. I cannot function properly. I cannot sleep like I normally would. I cannot breathe without gasping for air as the tears seem endless and only make me emptier by the drop. though i've been told I am not alone, I simply cannot think otherwise although I know I still have some people that love me. but you can't help that, yknow? it's this universal ugly truth that divides and brings together so many people. This thing is just blinding everything in front of me. I am just a little bit scared to become that wallflower I always thought I'd someday end up being. I never thought it would happen this way. I kind of wished it was a little more tragic or devastating. or at least that I knew in entirety why the whole thing just had to shatter right before my eyes. life SUCKS. let's hope I don't harm myself.