12 oclock exactly?

i tried to promise myself that i'd write in this thing everyday. it seems i have already failed with less than 2 weeks to my name. oh well, it's not unusual. well, for starters, i attended the CYE [christian youth event] retreat in Redding this past weekend. i have so many stories and things to say about the whole thing, but i'll just say that it was everything i expected and more. rural white people are so strange and obnoxious at the same time, their world is so small, they have this attitude and everlasting look of self-proclaimed superiority on their faces at all times that it is so easy to point and laugh at the ridiculousness and irony of them all. i didn't meet anyone that wasn't fake, or who didn't have the poorest hygiene. there was no one that i did not suspect a hint of racism or discrimination in. i think that last sentence was confusing. but basically, everyone was at least a little prejudice towards me and the fellow youth from my church. but it's nothing i didn't expect. i made several predictions in my head on the 4 hour drive there, and they all pretty much came true. the nerve of some people though.... i can honestly say that if my dad wasn't a priest, and it wasn't a christian camp sortof thing, i would've gotten in a fight with at least 3 people there. kids these days.

i felt pretty crappy today. aches all over my body, exhaustion consuming every last drop of energy i had after the weekend. i was pretty beat after coming home last night, and i did not feel like 9 hours of sleep last night served me any justice, especially since i had a math exam to make up, which i was almost certain that i would fail due to, well, passing out. anyhow, i ended up staying home the whole day, sleeping and reading twilight, which i finally finished. i promised myself i'd finish the whole series before friday, and i really hope i manage to do so. after school, balls came over for a visit, which i really needed. i missed him alot over the weekend, and started feeling better the moment i opened the door for him to come inside. i don't realize how much i need him sometimes. i'm eternally glad he is always there for me. it felt nice to have real hugs after 3 days of minimal physical contact with anyone. i love him everyday.

well, i guess that is all for now. i violated my own word on not using names, but what the hell, everyone will know who this is anyway. i think i'll start following other people. it gets quite boring when you know you're talking to yourself.

november is almost over. what a trip. 4 weeks left of school? somewhere around there.